And this is my life with baby. The emotional pregnant woman I once was has just upgraded to the Lifetime Pass for this amusement park that is life ... and has hopped on the roller coaster with the most vertical loops and hoops. Becoming a mother is the most amazing and most scary thing I have ever done.
There are three things (short of God) that have gotten me through this ride. The first is my mother's intuition. Having a child and recognizing what she needs and when she needs it has come so natural. Thank goodness for biology. The second is the father's intuition of my husband. Like me, he has gracefully fallen into his new role. I COULD NOT have done any of this without him. And last but not least is Emilija. Looking in her eyes, at her feet. Kissing her lips and feeling her skin. Watching her hand grasp my finger. Running my hand over her barely-there hair brings all new meaning to life. It makes you keep going. So me with Joe and the ever-precious Emilija are figuring our new life out together; we're the perfect team.
My life is 90% Emilija, 8% Joe, & 2% everything else. Friends, extended family, laundry, dusting, bathing ... have not only taken a back burner to life here on Hibiscus Way, they are still in a vintage Pyrex bowl on the counter waiting to be mixed. I am a devotee of this perfect, little girl who has flooded my life and our home with nothing but the purest of loves ... straight down from heaven.
|Newborn Shot by Perry Vaile Photography.|